entry 8
7/4/25
ho it's national firework day. nothing more. the us became a thing on the 2nd anyway. still genocidally. is that a word
I WANT TO MAKE AN LPS VIDEO AGAINNNN my gf is here and will make it with me. i love her and i love lps. i am still developing the messiah lore but want to explore the story through shorts more than i want to create episodes, i think; maybe i'll chronicle each character and somehow, all the "episodes" will connect? that'll take quite a bit of time but it sounds so fun..... i love lpstube GOD I NEED TO YAP ABOUT IT SO BAD
i need to add this shit to my lps shrine. love ya bye
entry 7
7/3/25
HIIIIIIIIII i'm about to talk about my lps stories so please pardon my nerd out
i finally made another lps music video yesterday. it was short and kinda meh in my opinion but it instantly threw me back into the messiah world. i love pierre; he went from a new side character to a very important character so quickly and unexpectedly. i won't say anything about him, but i will continue to yap about how much i love him!!! in other lps news, i've finalized the messiah cast and accidentally changed its original lineup. originally, i wanted it to exist within the same universe as the one i created for caravo's cafe, a previous story i planned on executing but have since lost interest in. it was about mob life & included tyler, harley, and marnie, but failed to include addy and some of my other favorite characters. i think, if i continue that series (which has river, one of my favorite characters thus far, and margo and peter AND JEREMIAH GODDDD), i'll include it in either a different universe or change the entire plot... the ladder is what sounds best to me. i hated the main character so much, i don't know what i was thinking.
interestingly enough, johnathan and addy (previously cora) were in an even older series of mine that i'm so thankful i scrapped; it was so boring and so dramatic... & not in the fun way. i believe i used marnie as cora's mom in that series, as well, haha
i'm so excited to be obsessed with my stories again. i've added a couple characters--mara, johnathan, marnie, and andie--as of today because i needed to diversify the molds i was using... i have a main 5 problem out of habit!!! but i love #523 and #2440 so much, so i figured i'd add them in!!! it's 100% changed the story, as i elminated ella, a side character, and angel & tucker, two once-important characters, in favor of the spread i have now, so i'll need to rethink a lot.
entry 6
7/1/25
alright alright hello everyone
i went to my frist pride parade the other day and had a lovely time!!! i painted a couple lps accessories today and want to finish the eyes of a custom i've had sitting around for months. i've spent the entire day in my room after getting home from my girlfriend's house and find it difficult to remain home for longer than a couple days--even a single day. i have the opposite of agoraphobia, i think. it's odd, because i'm a homebody and intj, so you'd assume i'd love being home, in my room, alone.... not currently. i want to continue doing art and make videos but it's quite hard. i don't feel correct here.
i want to be covered in tattoos someday. i want to do clown makeup, too, but don't know what i want it to look like. i hope i have good updates on both of these wishes soon.
entry 5
6/28/25
i said i wouldn't get mega personal but GODDDDD it's so hard
someone in my family told me about horrible things they did and i keep thinking about it and feel gross. i can't even tell anyone because it grosses me out so bad. i wish my family wasn't freaked the freak outttt
entry 4
6/27/25
good morning gay nation
the concert was sosososo fun!!!! it was very loud and hot, but i enjoyed the high energy of the performers. i even got a shirt!!! some girl gave out some freebies to me and my little cousin, and now i have an epic rainbow loom bracelet that contains my favorite colors. i'm gonna take the day to relax and catch up on my website needs. i love making this website holy shit. it's so fun. i've been social media "free" for 6 days now and it's much thanks to neocities. im about to make my oats and coffee and enjoy my morning before showering and running some small errands. i'm going to pride soon--my first one EVER--so i'm also gonna prepare for that!!! YAYAYYAYAYYA i'm also wanting to start making asmr content again. i've tried before but got scared. i dont give a gaf at the moment so i may as well.
update, 9:57pm: i threw up. i had a 9-year streak and then broke it in september 2024 at WORK OF ALL PLACES and now i've done it again. i mini vommed a while back but. this was an event. sorry to my emetaphobic divas. but yes i threw up and think it was a because of the food i was eating in combo with my body not working this past week. mkay goodnight
entry 3
6/26/25
recently, my girlfriend and i celebrated our ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY YAYAYYAYAYYAYAY i lover her. hi angel
i'm reluctantly leaving for a concert i do not want to go to, although i am grateful for the experience and excited to see the performance. i'm just exhausted!!! i revamped many aspects of my site and am super hyperfixated on editing it right now, which makes it harder for me to gain motivation to go. i know it will be fun, and need to get ready asap as i've put it off longggg enough. just wanted to write a little update. soon, i go to pride!!! and then i have to exciting concerts coming up!!!!! so that's fun to look forward to. i feel like i have a really weird tone right now. oopsie bye bye !!!
entry 2
6/21/25
it's 8:09am and i am only using my phone to listen to my favorite podcast (the bald & the beautiful) before beginning work on videos, depop, and other things!!! before anything else, i'm going to actualize something i've wanted to draw for a while... i would say what it is but i can't, it's a secret!!! hehehe i'm excited to create. so far, i only miss instagram because i had a mini lps community on there; i was more popular on tiktok, but that popularity is so impersonal it made me a bit sad. i'm drinking coffee, about to make some lovely art, and listening to two bald middle-aged drag queens named brian yap. life is beautiful. i miss my girlfriend and my friends. i wish i wasn't living where i am currently but hey, what can ya do??? i just wanna keep writing. i shouldn't but i want to. lalala yesterday i had some amazing peanut butter and dark chocolate oatmeal and i am thinking about it a lot right now. mmmmm. okay byeeeee
entry 1
6/20/25
today i deleted all social media from my phone besides youtube (i upload and create from my phone) and spotify... if that counts?? i'm ancy already which is insane. i have the urge to write about this on a beautiful and funny instagram story, but that's not possible at the moment. thank god! in other news, i did my laundry and, more importantly, PUT IT AWAYYYYYY. now i am charging my phone and headphones before working out (boxing and inclined walk on treadmill!!). then i will hopefully draw??? maybe. i also am thinking about DVDs and how badly i wish they remained the standard for viewing media of its nature. we recently had to get rid of esentially all of our streaming services at home, so i guess it's good DVDs are undervalued; i get to keep them all to myself for 0.99 at my local Goodwill. okay this is so odd and unorganized but stream of conciousness is so fun. thanks for reading!!!!